I know. I can't replace anyone in your life. And I am not here for that. I just wanted to occupy little part of your heart. I just wanted to grab few minutes of your thought process. A little and few is what I wanted. And that is where I went wrong. You wanted me in whole while denying little and few that could bring a lot of joy for me. I wanted tiny gifts. You bought me huge surprises. But still I felt abandoned. Those surprises didn't surprise me after all. You didn't have little time to spare for me. Phone Call.Order.Surprise.Ready. And I am sitting all alone in a room full of people. Your absence. That pushed me into this solitude. I am only accompanied with your absence here while you keep demanding my whole attention. I have befriended the pain you bring me. There I lost my serenity of life. Losing myself. Loving someone so ignorant about my love. Creating a mess around. Falling in every dark pits on the way to love myself. I am lost. Without you. But you are royally ignoring. And I keep failing every time. In the mission of hating you.

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